♥ We Talked Things Out ... ♥ 보고싶어 . had been in friend's birthday chalet since friday . just got back like 8pm+ today . the night before goin to friend's chalet, had an so called ' talk things out ' with boyfriend over msn,
like finally ? once and for all ? i guess . i've been keepin all those to myself for too long ...  its totally nothin gotta do about he, not lovin me . i knows he loves me . but ... hmmm ...
bein more automatic, little actions, romantic stuffs . i dont really see all these from him . sometimes, i did so much till i feel like im the ' boyfriend ' and he's the ' girlfriend ' instead . all these happened mayb cause he dont have much past relationship experience ? i dont know ... afew times, i told myself . dont expect all these from him anymore . he's just a b o y . but . i cant  if i dont tell him how/what to do, want him to learn to be a better boyfriend . then this wouldn't be a boyfriend/relationship that i want . even if i love him, i would still give up on him/this relationship eventually .
that night over msn, after i told him everythin unhappy that had been kept to myself all these while, he told me that when it comes to romantic stuffs, he's clueless . no one is born to be a romantic person . everyone learns . he too told me that he cant be the boyfriend that i want . the moment he told me that . i start to think  how much would he sacrifice for me, how far would he go, just to see that smile on my face .   at that moment, his love for me has been doubt .
" how do you know you cant . when you didnt even try . " im a girl . i wanna be taken care of too ... after that night's conversation, we didnt brought it out and say anymore . everythin seems normal the next day . we still text each other, talked on phone while im in friend's chalet . i dont know if after talkin things out will anythin change . but i know at least i told . although that night's talkin did affect me a little but still, " dar dar, 보고싶어 ! " gonna finally meet him tomorrow after 3days
of not seein him . its 4.30am+ now . offta sleep ! ♥ just wanna see a little more from you, a better boyfriend . am i expectin too much ... ? |