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♥ My Understandin Boyfriend .

came back not long ago from old friend

catchin up with @ugust  

 hearts my boyfriend lots ! cause, he's so understandin .

he actually let me go out with @ugust, whom is a guy .

" dar dar, thanks for trustin me  "

 sometimes, i wish i could do the same . trust . but i cant ...

mayb that's the difference, one bein cheated before; one's past . phobia

 but boyfriend understands all these . 

im glad he's such an understandin boyfriend

anyway, @ugust and i went to ang mo kio hub to have dinner

and caught a movie, case 39 .

dinner, catchin up with him, everythin was nice except,

 movie sucks . lousy, borin . 

past 2days, i was stayin over with boyfriend at his bestfriend, jason's

house who just got back from overseas

that few days, i got to met few of his closest friends for the 1st time .

nice hangin out with them . and their pattern all same as my boyfriend,

say alot of crappy stuffs which makes people laugh . into online

games, basketball, majong, anime ...

quite alot of photos to upload here .

but, not now . im lazy ! * giggles *

im so free and not sleepin yet cause, im waitin for 8am to reach .

waitin for my boyfriend to come back from camp

and go over his place to sleep with him

 2 hours and 30minutes to go !

♥ @ugust .

" its good to have you back . my old friend  "

* up in next post, photos of my 21st with family, relatives

and on yacht !

♥ We Talked Things Out ...

♥ 보고싶어 .

had been in friend's birthday chalet since friday .

just got back like 8pm+ today .

the night before goin to friend's chalet,

 had an so called ' talk things out ' with boyfriend over msn,

like finally ? once and for all ?

i guess . i've been keepin all those to myself for too long ...

its totally nothin gotta do about he, not lovin me .

i knows he loves me .

 but ... hmmm ...

bein more automatic, little actions, romantic stuffs .

i dont really see all these from him .

sometimes, i did so much till i feel like im the ' boyfriend '

and he's the ' girlfriend ' instead .

all these happened mayb cause he dont have much past

relationship experience ?  i dont know ...

afew times, i told myself .

dont expect all these from him anymore . he's just a b o y .

but . i cant

if i dont tell him how/what to do,

want him to learn to be a better boyfriend .

then this wouldn't be a boyfriend/relationship that i want .

even if i love him,

 i would still give up on him/this relationship eventually .

that night over msn,

after i told him everythin unhappy that

had been kept to myself all these while,

he told me that when it comes to romantic stuffs,

he's clueless .

no one is born to be a romantic person .

everyone learns .

he too told me that he cant be the boyfriend that i want .

the moment he told me that .

i start to think

how much would he sacrifice for me, how far would he go,

just to see that smile on my face .

 at that moment, his love for me has been doubt .

" how do you know you cant . when you didnt even try . "

im a girl . i wanna be taken care of too ...

after that night's conversation, we didnt brought it

out and say anymore .

everythin seems normal the next day .

we still text each other, talked on phone while

im in friend's chalet .

i dont know if after talkin things out will anythin change .

but i know at least i told .

although that night's talkin did affect me a little

but still,

" dar dar, 보고싶어 !  "

 gonna finally meet him tomorrow after 3days

of not seein him .

offta sleep !

♥ just wanna see a little more from you, a better boyfriend .

am i expectin too much ... ?